8 months ago.
It was you.
And I knew I was talking about you.
Because it's true.
It's still you.
Always will be.
It's hard being the last one to move on.
Thinking about what she has, that I didn't, what I did wrong.
8 months ago I wrote the last words.
Still thinking about it, us, you, feels absurd.
It's you, always has been.
But I'll go out, meet somebody else, get back to uni and go back to the life I'm used to.
And I hope one day we meet again, and you'll know.
8 months ago. Years Ago. Days ago.
It was always me.
Monday, 3 September 2012
Thursday, 29 December 2011
been almost a year.
December 2011. Shit. A lot has happened. This is me and my year since the last time. In 50.
1. I am now 19, at University and finished my first term, not long to start my second. Having the best time of my life, genuine.
2. I went to Kavos in the summer and will never forget it. I fell in love with somebody that I never imagined meeting but so glad that I did.
3. I've changed a lot. I don't care about not being social enough or trying to fit in. I have my real friends and I love them, pretending to be someone I'm not is no longer something I'm interested in..
4. I am obsessed with everything Welsh. I always have been, it just took this summer and being back there again as if it was home, for me to remember.
5. I'm not that interested in going out to find men anymore. Doesn't interest me. If it happens, it happens.
6. Some nights now, I don't let it happen just for the sake of it.
7. I miss him a lot. I hate distance and what it did to us because I really thought it would work.
8. I'll never tell him that.
9. I'm still obsessed with Facebook, probably a bit too much.
10. Some days, I loathe Facebook and every post I wish I didn't see.
11. I get jealous. More than you'd ever imagine. But I won't show it, ever.
12. I love sitting in bed all day and doing nothing, just because I can.
13. I get angry at myself when I sit in bed all day doing nothing. Like I've wasted a whole day when I could be out.
14. I love just sitting in a pub and talking.
15. Since Uni, I've found myself wanting to get drunk a lot more often, just because there's nothing else to do.
16. I miss the old days where we'd sit in a park like it was our second home.
17. I never have money and lack the ability to keep a job, even though the last one, had to end.
18. Even considered working at Hooters.
19. I'm very scared about letting any new men into my life, I don't trust them. I don't trust myself.
20. I'm fed up of everybody and everything leaving without a fight.
21. I enjoy watching shows like Don't Tell the Bride over and over again.
22. I feel sad that I can't write songs anymore. Forgotten how to do it.
23. I've always been someone to talk about myself and my life a lot. Granted, I still do. But i've listened this year, and learnt a lot.
24. I love eating carrots and pitta bread.
25. Hate seeing couples in the winter, mainly because I'm alone.
26. Since Uni, I cannot sleep. It's 2am and I'm not tired.
27. This annoys me, a lot.
28. I hate the fact I can't buy what I want, when I want it.
29. I think I'm getting better with money.. I used to be shit.
30. I love everything about rugby, always wished I would.
31. I have a type, a very particular type. And at the moment, that's probably not a good thing.
32. Avicci - Levels and Benny Bennassi - Cinema, One Direction, What Makes You Beautiful, three songs to sum up my year.
33. Hate it when songs that only you knew about come out on the radio and everything special about it, is ruined.
34. I am hungry all the time and late night snacking is a massive problem.
35. I'm always wanting to change something about myself. It annoys me.
36. I've stopped caring what everybody thinks... almost. I'm having a much better time because of it.
37. Wish I was in Made In Chelsea.
38. I stupidly wait around and hope that he'll tell me he misses me.
39. I kick myself when I give in and text him and he doesn't reply.
40. I think about things way too much. This has never changed.
41. I now buy my songs on iTunes instead of getting them illegally - stupid fact, true. But I feel better for it. I'd want to be given credit for something I spent a lot of time on, so I give them it.
42. Since February, I've been in a&e twice just to be there for somebody else. Once on holiday, the other on my birthday.
43. Realised I do a lot more for myself rather than doing everything just to please people. I'm glad.
45. I wouldn't usually struggle to get to 50, but this time, I am. I don't tell everybody everything about myself anymore, or everything about my past.
46. Most at Uni, haven't a clue what I've been through but I haven't felt the need to tell them, I don't know why.
47. I still can't drive. This angers me. Mainly because I haven't got up from off my arse and tried again.
48. I rarely went to any of my lectures this term, but plan to change this after the new year. I feel serious about doing things right now.
49. Sometimes I'll miss things on tv, just because I enjoy watching them on catch up. I used to hate myself if I ever missed out on anything.
50. I really hope 2012 is as good as this one has been. I hope I am able to move on or at least have some of my questions answered. I hope I'm smiling this time next year and that I don't have to explain how everything has changed. Again. But maybe that somethings have changed, and i'm happy and that 2012 really was as good as this year. Hard to beat (minus several moments), definitely.
Saturday, 19 February 2011
oh, how times change.
I read back at my first blog post tonight. And realised how much my life has changed. Too be kept updated with the current affairs and status of my life, I feel, is incredibly important. Even if you don't give a shit.. So here goes nothing:
1. My name is Rhea - bita boring pointless information, it means water loving. greaattt one. I'm pretty sure my name still means Water Loving.
2. I am a 17 year old girl and I live in a pretty wack ass town in London, UK. I'm now 18, living the high life. Sadly, still in London.
3. I am incredibly British, but I was clearly meant to be American. I still sometimes wish I was american. Or at least, lived in america.
4. I am virgin. Because most men in my life are assholes. I'm not a virgin. I've had a good (and not so good) few encounters.
5. I have blonde hair. No, it isn't natural and it doesn't mean I am dumb, I lack common sense at times - yes. But I am pretty smart when it comes down to education so don't judge. I think I've lost my smart mojo. But I'm still blonde..
6. My sad excuse of a life used to be incredibly boring and lonely. Now, this is not the case, I have too much drama. I still have a lot of drama. Probably more so.
7. Most people think that because I go to a pretty common school with a shitty reputation, i.e. Slagtown, otherwise known as, home of underage mothers, that I myself, am common. I'm not common. I try everything possible not to be branded that way. I still do this.
8. I'm too nice. I am nice to everyone. And give out way too many second chances. Please refer back to my last relationship.
9. I can honestly say I now only have one best friend. Things aren't how they used to be and I don't just call every friend - my best friend. In this new life I got going on, my best friend is pretty fooking amazing and I am surprised at how close we are despite only knowing each other a good couple of years. Hm. I still have my best friend. But we've changed. It's not the same anymore.
10. I have had a pretty shit childhood. And vow never to turn out how my family has turned out. Not that there is anything too wrong with it anymore, we are all just abit crazy and slightly broken. My family is whole again. But that doesn't mean we're not broken.
11. I looveee to write, sing, act and be the centre of the attention. Though, at the same time I am incredibly modest and shy. Weird that. I don't really enjoy the limelight anymore. I'd rather be brilliant in the sidelines thanks.
12. I use the term 'love you' too freely. I'm working on that. Someone changed me. I vow never to tell someone I love them unless I know that I do.
13. I've had a lot of people leave my life. Sometimes I wonder if there is anything wrong with that. There is something wrong with that.
14. I love love love parties. Though, this never used to be the case - I never got invited anywhere. I get invited to lots of places. And still like to party. I sometimes wonder, what's the point.
15. These days, I've pretty much gone against every moral I once had. This is more relevant than ever.
16. I only had my first actual kiss last year. 10th August 2008. I was 15 - a late bloomer compared to the rest of my friends. This is still true.. or at least, was at the time.
17. Since my first kiss, this being a year and 4 months ago, I have kissed at least 20 people. Including 3 girls. LOL at my honestly. Not going to lie, I have now lost count. My black book is incredibly insane and incredibly pointless. I'ma change.
18. I hate rumours. Loathe them in fact. I still hate these. I also hate people that follow them.
19. I love tea. I hate coffee. Though will weirdly drink coffee from Starbucks. I actually quite like a milky coffee.
20. I cry way too often and way too easily. Especially at films. This hasn't changed.
21. Films are my actual weakness. I can spend hours in HMV. Films are still my weakness. But I find myself not having the time to enjoy them.
22. I can also spend hours in any bookshop, and have done. Again, I wish I had the time.
23. I am unemployed and unemployable. Pretty much a fact. I've had a job. And then I got fired..
24. My first memory was getting my head stuck in an unusually large trolley at Nettos when I were about three. It was a horrific moment for pretty much the entire supermarket. This still haunts me.
25. I hate bees and anything that flies. I cover my ears every time I am near them, due to being stung 5 times in my left ear when I were 5. I feel like I haven't seen a bee or anything like it in years. Pigeons though, and seabirds.. HATE. THEM.
26. I love writing songs, though I don't do it much anymore. I never make time. I got half way through a song during the summer.. I'm not sure what happened to it.
27. I am very good at texting and emailing people back and cannot stand people that are not the same. I am still like this. Though in all honestly, I WILL ignore your phone calls.
28. I am not a lesbian, but WILL make sexual comments about my girlfriends. It is how we roll. I can't say I do this too much anymore..
29. I am incredibly scared of anything sexual. Despite how I act, I don't have much experience with all that jazz. Um, no comment.
30. I change my laugh on a daily bases. And will laugh and anything remotely funny. Though I have a certain sense of humour. I don't find 'obvious jokes' funny, i.e the scary movie films. I have to turn them off, they are insulting to my humour. I found that it is increasingly hard to make me laugh. or make me happy. Many people now bore me.
31. I get judged a lot. But when people get to know me, I really am not who they originally thought I were. I'm still judged a lot. Maybe for different reasons. They still do not know me.
32. I hate a lot of things in other people that actually I am guilty of myself. Still relevant. Maybe even more so.
33. I am an auntie. and soon to be an auntie of 3 :) I love it. I am an auntie of 3. I wish I could see them more than I do. But I love them and it all the same.
34. I want children yes. I'll save it till my late twenties though I think. This definitely still stands. Uni first please.
35. I have a type in men, though have never actually pursued that type. Which is pretty sucky. Sadly, I still have not really pursued this type. Ish, I suppose. If friends with benefits count. On a further note, my type seems to have changed completely. You have no idea..
36. On the class scale, I technically would come under a lower class, though everyone in my family believe I should belong somewhere higher. I agree. This was actually mentioned not long ago. Though sometimes, I think they wish I didn't wish for better things.
37. I have a phobia of Robbie Williams - I once dreamt that he kissed me in primary school and I woke up crying. No joke. I hate the fact he has grown on me. He's still a bit weird though..
38. I am probably the worst lier ever. Fact. Still.
39. I talk for England once I get started. Probably still relevant. Takes someone worthy to keep the convo alive though.
40. I am in sixth form and hate it with a passion. Though, I intend to spend the next 5 to 6 years still in education. Greaaat one. I still hate it, but I'm surviving. Actually quite looking forward to my next years in education.
41. I've performed in a lot of theatres across London. Though not once had the main part. Assholes. Still true. I quit in the end.. Realised I was a small fish in a big pond. Or at least a big fish that went unnoticed.
45. I am the least photogenic person ever and always hate the result of my picture being taken, though despite this, always moan the morning after a party when I am in hardly any pictures. This is incredibly still true. My photo's of the night before have become increasingly awful..
46. I fall for men wayyy too easily and then usually get left or ignored. I fell for one boy. A lot. More than anyone else. And yes, he left. I was in a bad place for a long time.
47. I get jealous of couples in PDA. and will always cover it up with the fact that "I find it gross" or "loathe emotion" Only when I'm alone and despising men and love in general..
48. I despise meal deals and am like my father, and very rarely use vouchers. I still find it difficult to go for a meal deal. In times of poverty though, it has to be done.
49. I prefer to meet new people under the influence of alcohol and truth is, I'm pretty boring when meeting new people sober. I don't think this is true. I find it a lot easier to talk to new people. But alcohol is still preferred.
50. I was going to stop at 50 things about me but just to be different, as I often try to be, I'm going to make it 60.
51. I am ashamed at the fact I used to be a 'chav' - gold earrings and chain and everything. Now, I am the complete opposite to that. In fact, I don't realllyyy know where I am heading with my style. I just make it up as I go along. I cannot wait for Uni to be able to change my entire wardrobe without people wondering why.
52. I get incredibly bored with my hair, yet, never do anything different with it and simply blame it on the fact that "I can't" I'm getting better. But usually cannot be bothered.
53. I rarely go abroad, so boner every time that I do. Switzerland in 2006, has to be the most amazing experience of my life. Not sure I've been abroad since writing. This summer in Kavos though, is set to be incredible.
54. I know that deep down inside, I am a book just waiting to be published. Still true, let's face it.
55. The friends that know me well, will know that every time I get randy, I will wake up with a cold sore. It is a fear of mine, and I despise herpes with a passion. Darn whomever first gave me a scab on my lip. I found out it was my dad.. I've grudged this against him ever since. This whole randy thing though, so relevant. I bloody hate coldsores.
56. I am addicted to Facebook and will sit for hours just refreshing the homepage just in case something new happens in the world. It rarely does. Facebook is still my life. But all the changes are slowly ruining the experience.
57. My confidence is growing. I used to be a complete and utter douche whom never spoke and gave people a lot of my money thinking they would give it back. They never did. Assholes. As I have no money to give, this is no longer an issue.
58. I have an obsession with Musicals and my IPOD is embarrassing. My Ipod could still be deemed awful. But it's slowly improving.. what with my love for festivals and all that jazz.
59. I have kept a diary consistently since I was about 10. People never understood that about me, but it became habit. My diary/private blog is still going strong. Since 14, I've managed to document my life in more than 100 a4 pages. Exciting stuff.
60. I pray that 2010 will be my year. A year of which I loose all purity and basically just have a rave. I'll let you know how it goes. If you have not gathered, a lot has changed. In 2010, I now only lost all purity and had a rave but my life completely changed. I am a different person in 2011. And I'm not sure how I feel about this. Even still, I had an amazing year. And also endured some not so amamzing times. Please 2011, be good to me.
1. My name is Rhea - bita boring pointless information, it means water loving. greaattt one. I'm pretty sure my name still means Water Loving.
2. I am a 17 year old girl and I live in a pretty wack ass town in London, UK. I'm now 18, living the high life. Sadly, still in London.
3. I am incredibly British, but I was clearly meant to be American. I still sometimes wish I was american. Or at least, lived in america.
4. I am virgin. Because most men in my life are assholes. I'm not a virgin. I've had a good (and not so good) few encounters.
5. I have blonde hair. No, it isn't natural and it doesn't mean I am dumb, I lack common sense at times - yes. But I am pretty smart when it comes down to education so don't judge. I think I've lost my smart mojo. But I'm still blonde..
6. My sad excuse of a life used to be incredibly boring and lonely. Now, this is not the case, I have too much drama. I still have a lot of drama. Probably more so.
7. Most people think that because I go to a pretty common school with a shitty reputation, i.e. Slagtown, otherwise known as, home of underage mothers, that I myself, am common. I'm not common. I try everything possible not to be branded that way. I still do this.
8. I'm too nice. I am nice to everyone. And give out way too many second chances. Please refer back to my last relationship.
9. I can honestly say I now only have one best friend. Things aren't how they used to be and I don't just call every friend - my best friend. In this new life I got going on, my best friend is pretty fooking amazing and I am surprised at how close we are despite only knowing each other a good couple of years. Hm. I still have my best friend. But we've changed. It's not the same anymore.
10. I have had a pretty shit childhood. And vow never to turn out how my family has turned out. Not that there is anything too wrong with it anymore, we are all just abit crazy and slightly broken. My family is whole again. But that doesn't mean we're not broken.
11. I looveee to write, sing, act and be the centre of the attention. Though, at the same time I am incredibly modest and shy. Weird that. I don't really enjoy the limelight anymore. I'd rather be brilliant in the sidelines thanks.
12. I use the term 'love you' too freely. I'm working on that. Someone changed me. I vow never to tell someone I love them unless I know that I do.
13. I've had a lot of people leave my life. Sometimes I wonder if there is anything wrong with that. There is something wrong with that.
14. I love love love parties. Though, this never used to be the case - I never got invited anywhere. I get invited to lots of places. And still like to party. I sometimes wonder, what's the point.
15. These days, I've pretty much gone against every moral I once had. This is more relevant than ever.
16. I only had my first actual kiss last year. 10th August 2008. I was 15 - a late bloomer compared to the rest of my friends. This is still true.. or at least, was at the time.
17. Since my first kiss, this being a year and 4 months ago, I have kissed at least 20 people. Including 3 girls. LOL at my honestly. Not going to lie, I have now lost count. My black book is incredibly insane and incredibly pointless. I'ma change.
18. I hate rumours. Loathe them in fact. I still hate these. I also hate people that follow them.
19. I love tea. I hate coffee. Though will weirdly drink coffee from Starbucks. I actually quite like a milky coffee.
20. I cry way too often and way too easily. Especially at films. This hasn't changed.
21. Films are my actual weakness. I can spend hours in HMV. Films are still my weakness. But I find myself not having the time to enjoy them.
22. I can also spend hours in any bookshop, and have done. Again, I wish I had the time.
23. I am unemployed and unemployable. Pretty much a fact. I've had a job. And then I got fired..
24. My first memory was getting my head stuck in an unusually large trolley at Nettos when I were about three. It was a horrific moment for pretty much the entire supermarket. This still haunts me.
25. I hate bees and anything that flies. I cover my ears every time I am near them, due to being stung 5 times in my left ear when I were 5. I feel like I haven't seen a bee or anything like it in years. Pigeons though, and seabirds.. HATE. THEM.
26. I love writing songs, though I don't do it much anymore. I never make time. I got half way through a song during the summer.. I'm not sure what happened to it.
27. I am very good at texting and emailing people back and cannot stand people that are not the same. I am still like this. Though in all honestly, I WILL ignore your phone calls.
28. I am not a lesbian, but WILL make sexual comments about my girlfriends. It is how we roll. I can't say I do this too much anymore..
29. I am incredibly scared of anything sexual. Despite how I act, I don't have much experience with all that jazz. Um, no comment.
30. I change my laugh on a daily bases. And will laugh and anything remotely funny. Though I have a certain sense of humour. I don't find 'obvious jokes' funny, i.e the scary movie films. I have to turn them off, they are insulting to my humour. I found that it is increasingly hard to make me laugh. or make me happy. Many people now bore me.
31. I get judged a lot. But when people get to know me, I really am not who they originally thought I were. I'm still judged a lot. Maybe for different reasons. They still do not know me.
32. I hate a lot of things in other people that actually I am guilty of myself. Still relevant. Maybe even more so.
33. I am an auntie. and soon to be an auntie of 3 :) I love it. I am an auntie of 3. I wish I could see them more than I do. But I love them and it all the same.
34. I want children yes. I'll save it till my late twenties though I think. This definitely still stands. Uni first please.
35. I have a type in men, though have never actually pursued that type. Which is pretty sucky. Sadly, I still have not really pursued this type. Ish, I suppose. If friends with benefits count. On a further note, my type seems to have changed completely. You have no idea..
36. On the class scale, I technically would come under a lower class, though everyone in my family believe I should belong somewhere higher. I agree. This was actually mentioned not long ago. Though sometimes, I think they wish I didn't wish for better things.
37. I have a phobia of Robbie Williams - I once dreamt that he kissed me in primary school and I woke up crying. No joke. I hate the fact he has grown on me. He's still a bit weird though..
38. I am probably the worst lier ever. Fact. Still.
39. I talk for England once I get started. Probably still relevant. Takes someone worthy to keep the convo alive though.
40. I am in sixth form and hate it with a passion. Though, I intend to spend the next 5 to 6 years still in education. Greaaat one. I still hate it, but I'm surviving. Actually quite looking forward to my next years in education.
41. I've performed in a lot of theatres across London. Though not once had the main part. Assholes. Still true. I quit in the end.. Realised I was a small fish in a big pond. Or at least a big fish that went unnoticed.
45. I am the least photogenic person ever and always hate the result of my picture being taken, though despite this, always moan the morning after a party when I am in hardly any pictures. This is incredibly still true. My photo's of the night before have become increasingly awful..
46. I fall for men wayyy too easily and then usually get left or ignored. I fell for one boy. A lot. More than anyone else. And yes, he left. I was in a bad place for a long time.
47. I get jealous of couples in PDA. and will always cover it up with the fact that "I find it gross" or "loathe emotion" Only when I'm alone and despising men and love in general..
48. I despise meal deals and am like my father, and very rarely use vouchers. I still find it difficult to go for a meal deal. In times of poverty though, it has to be done.
49. I prefer to meet new people under the influence of alcohol and truth is, I'm pretty boring when meeting new people sober. I don't think this is true. I find it a lot easier to talk to new people. But alcohol is still preferred.
50. I was going to stop at 50 things about me but just to be different, as I often try to be, I'm going to make it 60.
51. I am ashamed at the fact I used to be a 'chav' - gold earrings and chain and everything. Now, I am the complete opposite to that. In fact, I don't realllyyy know where I am heading with my style. I just make it up as I go along. I cannot wait for Uni to be able to change my entire wardrobe without people wondering why.
52. I get incredibly bored with my hair, yet, never do anything different with it and simply blame it on the fact that "I can't" I'm getting better. But usually cannot be bothered.
53. I rarely go abroad, so boner every time that I do. Switzerland in 2006, has to be the most amazing experience of my life. Not sure I've been abroad since writing. This summer in Kavos though, is set to be incredible.
54. I know that deep down inside, I am a book just waiting to be published. Still true, let's face it.
55. The friends that know me well, will know that every time I get randy, I will wake up with a cold sore. It is a fear of mine, and I despise herpes with a passion. Darn whomever first gave me a scab on my lip. I found out it was my dad.. I've grudged this against him ever since. This whole randy thing though, so relevant. I bloody hate coldsores.
56. I am addicted to Facebook and will sit for hours just refreshing the homepage just in case something new happens in the world. It rarely does. Facebook is still my life. But all the changes are slowly ruining the experience.
57. My confidence is growing. I used to be a complete and utter douche whom never spoke and gave people a lot of my money thinking they would give it back. They never did. Assholes. As I have no money to give, this is no longer an issue.
58. I have an obsession with Musicals and my IPOD is embarrassing. My Ipod could still be deemed awful. But it's slowly improving.. what with my love for festivals and all that jazz.
59. I have kept a diary consistently since I was about 10. People never understood that about me, but it became habit. My diary/private blog is still going strong. Since 14, I've managed to document my life in more than 100 a4 pages. Exciting stuff.
60. I pray that 2010 will be my year. A year of which I loose all purity and basically just have a rave. I'll let you know how it goes. If you have not gathered, a lot has changed. In 2010, I now only lost all purity and had a rave but my life completely changed. I am a different person in 2011. And I'm not sure how I feel about this. Even still, I had an amazing year. And also endured some not so amamzing times. Please 2011, be good to me.
Wednesday, 2 February 2011
enough of the depressing shit.
"On my last night on earth, I won't look to the sky
Just breathe in the air and blink in the light
On my last night on earth, I'll pay a high price
To have no regrets and be done with my life
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
You've got more than money and sense, my friend
You've got heart and you go in your own way
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
What you don't have now will come back again
You've got heart and you go in your own way"
- Noah and the Whale.
ps. music saves me.
Just breathe in the air and blink in the light
On my last night on earth, I'll pay a high price
To have no regrets and be done with my life
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
You've got more than money and sense, my friend
You've got heart and you go in your own way
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
What you don't have now will come back again
You've got heart and you go in your own way"
- Noah and the Whale.
ps. music saves me.
Wednesday, 5 January 2011
the moral of the story is, there isn't one.
Sometimes people shouldn't do things,
and that's exactly why they do.
Genuinely don't care anymore.
I cared. I wouldn't have opened my mouth if I didn't.
But fuck it.
Life's too short to care.
You care too much. About everything. That's your problem.
I made a mistake. Infact, lately, I've made a lot of fucking mistakes.
Can you blame me. Everyone shits on me anyway.
I get it. I'm wrong. I hurt you. I'm sorry. He's not.
But I will not let you play victim.
I've played that part far too many times to know that in reality, no one fucking cares about our stories.
And they shouldn't.
Just leave the peices and move the fuck on.
With or without me.
and that's exactly why they do.
Genuinely don't care anymore.
I cared. I wouldn't have opened my mouth if I didn't.
But fuck it.
Life's too short to care.
You care too much. About everything. That's your problem.
I made a mistake. Infact, lately, I've made a lot of fucking mistakes.
Can you blame me. Everyone shits on me anyway.
I get it. I'm wrong. I hurt you. I'm sorry. He's not.
But I will not let you play victim.
I've played that part far too many times to know that in reality, no one fucking cares about our stories.
And they shouldn't.
Just leave the peices and move the fuck on.
With or without me.
Sunday, 21 November 2010
go on, write a poem, pour your heart out..
TO MY FOREVER UNLABLED
Had we both live in a time,
Where things were easy, and lead no crime,
We'd sit together and talk of love,
For once at peace, and that's enough.
You'd travel the Thames and battle the tides,
Just to be with me, and be by my side.
You'd speak of words, words that you mean,
And only for me, forever you're keen.
Adore all that I am, and all I can be,
Adore me as much, as I adore thee.
I'll forever label you my true,
And in this world, you'd do that too.
For I have never asked for better,
They tell me my tears will only get wetter,
But in this time, we do not care,
I never have to ask, for you to be there.
As i'm the one, that won your heart,
And being a lad while we are apart,
Does not hinder us at all,
We catch each other when we fall.
Of course, I'd love to say this true,
But let's be real, that is not you.
And at my back, I always hear,
That a label for us, is no where near.
Our broken record of our past,
Makes certain, this time won't be our last,
But even still, am I sure it's sound?
Thy love for you, shall no more be found.
And into ashes all my lust,
If you're not true, turn me to dust.
Now therefore, let's not wish for death,
Let's speak the truth, no wasting breathes.
Let's make a label, make it true,
Forget the world, just me and you.
Resist temptation, and birds of prey,
Like girls whom spoil, turn our days to grey.
Forget them all and we'll be fine,
Let us laze about and lose the time.
And through our laugh and pouring heart,
I know the world, won't tear us apart.
Had we both live in a time,
Where things were easy, and lead no crime,
We'd sit together and talk of love,
For once at peace, and that's enough.
You'd travel the Thames and battle the tides,
Just to be with me, and be by my side.
You'd speak of words, words that you mean,
And only for me, forever you're keen.
Adore all that I am, and all I can be,
Adore me as much, as I adore thee.
I'll forever label you my true,
And in this world, you'd do that too.
For I have never asked for better,
They tell me my tears will only get wetter,
But in this time, we do not care,
I never have to ask, for you to be there.
As i'm the one, that won your heart,
And being a lad while we are apart,
Does not hinder us at all,
We catch each other when we fall.
Of course, I'd love to say this true,
But let's be real, that is not you.
And at my back, I always hear,
That a label for us, is no where near.
Our broken record of our past,
Makes certain, this time won't be our last,
But even still, am I sure it's sound?
Thy love for you, shall no more be found.
And into ashes all my lust,
If you're not true, turn me to dust.
Now therefore, let's not wish for death,
Let's speak the truth, no wasting breathes.
Let's make a label, make it true,
Forget the world, just me and you.
Resist temptation, and birds of prey,
Like girls whom spoil, turn our days to grey.
Forget them all and we'll be fine,
Let us laze about and lose the time.
And through our laugh and pouring heart,
I know the world, won't tear us apart.
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