1. I am now 19, at University and finished my first term, not long to start my second. Having the best time of my life, genuine.
2. I went to Kavos in the summer and will never forget it. I fell in love with somebody that I never imagined meeting but so glad that I did.
3. I've changed a lot. I don't care about not being social enough or trying to fit in. I have my real friends and I love them, pretending to be someone I'm not is no longer something I'm interested in..
4. I am obsessed with everything Welsh. I always have been, it just took this summer and being back there again as if it was home, for me to remember.
5. I'm not that interested in going out to find men anymore. Doesn't interest me. If it happens, it happens.
6. Some nights now, I don't let it happen just for the sake of it.
7. I miss him a lot. I hate distance and what it did to us because I really thought it would work.
8. I'll never tell him that.
9. I'm still obsessed with Facebook, probably a bit too much.
10. Some days, I loathe Facebook and every post I wish I didn't see.
11. I get jealous. More than you'd ever imagine. But I won't show it, ever.
12. I love sitting in bed all day and doing nothing, just because I can.
13. I get angry at myself when I sit in bed all day doing nothing. Like I've wasted a whole day when I could be out.
14. I love just sitting in a pub and talking.
15. Since Uni, I've found myself wanting to get drunk a lot more often, just because there's nothing else to do.
16. I miss the old days where we'd sit in a park like it was our second home.
17. I never have money and lack the ability to keep a job, even though the last one, had to end.
18. Even considered working at Hooters.
19. I'm very scared about letting any new men into my life, I don't trust them. I don't trust myself.
20. I'm fed up of everybody and everything leaving without a fight.
21. I enjoy watching shows like Don't Tell the Bride over and over again.
22. I feel sad that I can't write songs anymore. Forgotten how to do it.
23. I've always been someone to talk about myself and my life a lot. Granted, I still do. But i've listened this year, and learnt a lot.
24. I love eating carrots and pitta bread.
25. Hate seeing couples in the winter, mainly because I'm alone.
26. Since Uni, I cannot sleep. It's 2am and I'm not tired.
27. This annoys me, a lot.
28. I hate the fact I can't buy what I want, when I want it.
29. I think I'm getting better with money.. I used to be shit.
30. I love everything about rugby, always wished I would.
31. I have a type, a very particular type. And at the moment, that's probably not a good thing.
32. Avicci - Levels and Benny Bennassi - Cinema, One Direction, What Makes You Beautiful, three songs to sum up my year.
33. Hate it when songs that only you knew about come out on the radio and everything special about it, is ruined.
34. I am hungry all the time and late night snacking is a massive problem.
35. I'm always wanting to change something about myself. It annoys me.
36. I've stopped caring what everybody thinks... almost. I'm having a much better time because of it.
37. Wish I was in Made In Chelsea.
38. I stupidly wait around and hope that he'll tell me he misses me.
39. I kick myself when I give in and text him and he doesn't reply.
40. I think about things way too much. This has never changed.
41. I now buy my songs on iTunes instead of getting them illegally - stupid fact, true. But I feel better for it. I'd want to be given credit for something I spent a lot of time on, so I give them it.
42. Since February, I've been in a&e twice just to be there for somebody else. Once on holiday, the other on my birthday.
43. Realised I do a lot more for myself rather than doing everything just to please people. I'm glad.
45. I wouldn't usually struggle to get to 50, but this time, I am. I don't tell everybody everything about myself anymore, or everything about my past.
46. Most at Uni, haven't a clue what I've been through but I haven't felt the need to tell them, I don't know why.
47. I still can't drive. This angers me. Mainly because I haven't got up from off my arse and tried again.
48. I rarely went to any of my lectures this term, but plan to change this after the new year. I feel serious about doing things right now.
49. Sometimes I'll miss things on tv, just because I enjoy watching them on catch up. I used to hate myself if I ever missed out on anything.
50. I really hope 2012 is as good as this one has been. I hope I am able to move on or at least have some of my questions answered. I hope I'm smiling this time next year and that I don't have to explain how everything has changed. Again. But maybe that somethings have changed, and i'm happy and that 2012 really was as good as this year. Hard to beat (minus several moments), definitely.
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